unbecoming

sometimes I don’t like all of you

I look at your faces and I want to puke

there’s so much rage in me 

it’s unhealthy 

but that’s normal for Asian

no one talks about things

we just sweep it under the rug

and we love playing the game of let’s see who can’t take it anymore and then he can be the first one to talk

I hate how peaceful it is

I hate how good everyone else is at playing the game

I hate how good we are at hurting each other 

I hate how good we are at putting ourselves before another 

I wish I could do better 

and I should do better

because I have the gospel

Sorry Lord

I have sinned against you and done what is evil in your sight